Diary

         My trial result is bad....Because I can't achieve the target which I set before....I'm very disappointed to myself....And just now around eight at night,I sent my result to my sister and brother....Different responses replied to me.....Bro called back to me and signed at me....What he had said to me had made me felt sad....Is it really bad?Why the other can gained a good result and better than me?My father talked with bro and chatted about his life in matrik....Bro told that he can't follow in some subjects there...Most of the students are more intelligent than him....Of course,in Chinese race...I heard....Some feelings inside my heart are hard to describe....A clever brother I had can't follow the print of the other student?!Bro advised me to take for STPM....That's mean do in Form Six....The alternative choice which I don't like the most....I don't want to stay at the same school in my further life...I started to think of my future....Which occupation did I like?What course should I take after this?Many questions are filling my mind....I search for the answer but can't find....I asked my father and sis....Their answers given me are the same....More,father told me that don't think too much now and focus to my coming SPM....I can't....I knew that I can't achieve what they want....And I must find the one which I really interest in inside my spirit....I want to save my time...Sign....I just can follow what they want now....Just can follow what they tell now....The main reason is I don't know what I should do now....