目标

当我还在享受快乐的同时,你把我抛向了后头,
你让我从从前的Top跌入了落伍的一围,
那种从高高在上然后再一瞬间跌入谷底的感受你是不会明白的。

我不要让大家都只认同你一个人的实力,

遇到难题时第一个会找的就是你,

我会尽我能力去把我们之间的距离给拉近,

我要和你平起平坐!

我不要再跟着你的背影了!

努力地奋斗,

因为人生就是奋斗与竞争,

我不要活在别人的当下了,

加油吧。

除了加油,的确是没什么字是能代替它了。

嗯，

我会对自己所说过的话负上该有的责任的,

即使到最后也无法达到目的.........

 

考试

头很痛。

再过几天就要考试(Trial)了。

书，还没读完。

也不知怎么进考场。

十月

跟一个人走得近，自然而然就会传出绯闻。

不管是否简单的友情关系。

原来在我妈妈的眼里，男生和女生是没有单纯的友谊的。

我真的给她气到无话可说。

这个时代，怎么那么复杂的？

爱情?

很久以前,我和朋友们都很爱问男朋友必备的条件。

我记得我曾经说过，那个他一定要高过我，比我大，还要聪明过我。

我说我比较喜欢成熟的男生。

人是会改变的。

我很幼稚，幼稚到会去想这些事。

九月

我跟他已经没有什么关系了...

很简单,我发现他根本就不是我想要的那一位...

而且与他沟通简直就是件苦差...

对不起,

不适合就是不适合....

August Presents

 Thanks for those who present me for this month and also for my sweet 18th.

From my dear sister..

From my cute student CuiMin..

From the two boys of my students..

From my new classmate..

From my dear friend Carmen..

From the one,Ezz..

My present for him...

8月假期

已经忘了有多久没来到这里,看看部落友的部落,写写自己的心情...

有些事是该忘记的...有些事也是该改变的...

生日过了,人却还是那样....

三分钟的热度,好像永远都不能迟一秒而散发似的...

我,还是以前的那个我...

只是遇上了不同的人,做出了不该做的事...

这个一星期的假期里,我真的真的是超级懒散的...

在假期还没来临之前,我定下目标把所有的功课赶完,把所有老师教过的读完...

但结果还是早有预料的不成功...

没有错,我每次说过要做的大事都是不成功的...

那还是算了吧,对于学业这个东西,我可以说是渐渐地失去了信心,失去了当初的奋斗...

我觉得读书失去了意义...

中六生涯的选择,我觉得好像选错了...

任何一个科目,我都没有兴趣...

如果有一天我拿不上3.0,那也不再出奇了....

SPM拿多少个A,都与未来无关...

至于这个假期我做了些什么...

一天看完四分之三部连续剧...

然后立刻垮倒病去...

声音沙了头痛了也没关系,我还照样唱k,shopping去...

结果不到一天的时间内我没有声音了...

当然期间还发生我闹脾气的事...

难得Ezz回来了,我却生病了...

我是很讨厌的咯...

每一次他回来我都生病去...

咯咯咯!!

不过也挺开心的,他送了我很多的东西...

就这样的几天结束了...他也回去了...

我们也没什么好说的....

平平淡淡的...

 

至于接下来的日子我自然也没什么心情去翻书本...

还好身边有个朋友陪着我...

还有运动的这个发泄活动....

就这样,无聊的假期就结束了....

明天又得活着不像人活的日子了....

My Form Six Life

Form Six life is not as simple as I think before.Even though it had changed the system and now being to semester,it is still needed much works and efforts.No burn the midnight oil already,everyday I must study and do revision.But I know I didn't do throughout these days from the starting.So,I need to be change right now.I must and I ought to be!Form Six,I opt for Science stream.The subjects which I learn are PA,Chemistry,Math T,and the alternative subject---Biology.Why I choosen Bio but not Physics?In the actual,neither Bio nor Physics I get interest in.I just follow my friends.But I think it will not to be a wrong choice.I think Bio is more easier than Physics for girls like me who don't like the electrical part.My Bio teacher now also is a good teacher.I didn't find for any Bio tuition class,that made me need to pay full of the attention when study.But sometimes don't know why my mind fly away.Then,the next is about Math.I just can say I'm very disappointed to it.Because no teacher can make me totally understand it.I miss the class of my previous tuition teacher Steven.Without him,the two A+ in Maths are far from me.But now,what can I do?Just can do many practices to improve it.Chemistry,I don't want to talk.I don't like Chemistry at all.No reason.PA,I'm worrying about it.No tuition class too.The new syllbus I also not clear.Teacher asked us go to buy any of the brands she suggested  before,but finally after we bought it,she told us the best brand is Oxford.OMG,I bought Pelangi.And what she talking about in class almost didn't present inside my book.So,how I study?I really can't get any way for it.Just let it fail and can't get in U lo,hahaha....Crazy.Then MUET is the most I like.I like this subject and I like my MUET teacher too,Miss Prem.She is really an excellent teacher.Well English speaking,and also the extra knowledge.She tells us to eat raisin to improve our energy and memories.And when I back home,I repeat and repeat what she talk about in my class today to my two pity brothers.I copy her speeches and felt it is really fun.Did you find something wrong with me?Hahaha,speechless.Sometimes I also will think like that.And actually still got many many stuff in my Form Six life needed to be noted here.But just to be continue soon.

GANG for the new Starting

 I want to start my new life.A new school life_Form 6.

Most of friends beside me are going for UTAR.So,just left some of us stay for being 'Teja-ian'.

 Carmen,who is the best one,is going to study INTI at Nilai.I'm so envy her U-life,while those photos are uploaded by her in FB.Besides,miss her too.Our gang lack of crazy laughter without her now.When can we be study together again?

Next,the left of us include the UTAR-ian had once hang out together after Carmen left.We are still keeping the holiday mood while facing the turning point in our life.

What  can I write the next?I think I should end here.For those activities in my holiday,stay tune for next post.

Narrow

What I scared and worry about now?
Lost? 

An advice told me not to think about those worthless things.
Yet I'm unable.
I can't to resolve.
I had tried but failed. 

My thought is narrow.
I mind everything...

Driving

First Sunday of March,daddy finally will to let me to drive his car.Before the day,I was really nervous because I don't know whether I can control such big car or not.I get used of driving Kancil when I was in the driving lessons and test.But all came fine at last.Daddy gave me 75%.I'm very happy.Even though I can't like other friends drive to far distance places,I will be patient and wait for one day which I have my own car and go to the places which I want.

February I

I felt very disappointed last night.He busy for his stuff until 11pm.I almost waited for him around one hour.But the last result was he is still busy.Every message he sent to me is busy for that thing and those things.I felt tired then offline and went to sleep.Some unexplainable feelings disturbed me inside my heart.They made me can't sleep.I don't know how to say.I forced myself not to think anything.Useless,I can't control my mind at all.Just let me get use of this!Somehow we will be like that in the next!

Feb

Long time din have come to update my blog already.Since those blogger friends updated theirs one,it started my mood to follow too.But I never and not think about what should I write in this post yet.Many unexplainable speeches or things needed to share out with guys,but I have no idea with what should come out the first.May I start with the lost of my all photos?I dunno why they will suddenly flied away from my computer and I find them throughout the whole part of my computer but never find it.Photos are my memories with family and friends.But now,all are gone.However,I have not mind it now.The memories are kept inside my mind.Next,I started my tuition teaching since February.Even though I'm not really interest with it,the only thing what can I do in my home is just this.Many of my friends had went to other places for working.Sometimes I will feel unhappy with this,not because they leave me but I unable to find and get my own worthy job.I will feel that I'm wasting my time now and have a less experience than my friends.I don wan become like that but I lack of something inside their soul.Forget it,I know what can I do now to have a brighter future is improve myself by using these free times now.I need a supporter who can change me now.

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Lazy to update my blog,just simply update something new.

First,I need to mention about the driving test.I had passed it.It was just a lucky pass.I did danger action when I was changing the road.Luckily the examiner let me pass the test.

Then,CNY.Sister and brother back home.Very happy to meet them.This year,Uncle and his family didn't back for celebrating new year.They stay at Singapore.Hence this year became more bored then past years.

Something special happened in this CNY too.I think it had change my life.I scared to lose now.

In the next coming months,I think I will be more and more boring because of nothing and no job for me to do.

So,just wait and see.....Being useless girl, =P

Black mood day

...Black mood...

Last night I had celebrated Alex’s birthday with friends. Perhaps of the tea, it made me can’t sleep until 3a.m. I was really suffering in that moment. I had tried to listening music but it was inefficiency for me. I also tried to close my eyes and blank my brain. But I can’t! I almost use these hours to think useless things. Finally I cried without any reason. I don’t know why, I really, indeed don’t know! I just thinking for sleep because need to wake up early in the next day. Yet I could not. 

Now, I’m feeling very disappointed to myself. I was scolded by Uncle, my driving teacher just now. He said I didn’t step on the oil. HaizzzZ. I made the car stuck and needed to start again. It had happened many times for today. I don’t like his car! I’m getting angry to myself and felt like want to cry. Of course, I didn’t. Next Monday I need to have the driving test, why I still couldn’t manage it?! Why?!!!

I'm very very sad today!!!!!!

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   Lazy feeling keep on in my soul, how could I get rid of it?In this long holiday, I didn’t have done a meaningful thing. The same actions repeat and repeat in my life. I started to feel bored with it. What should I do as I even didn’t have a job and having money to do what I like? These nights, I woke up frequently and can’t sleep well too. It really made me suffer, hard to sleep.I’m neither a student nor worker now. I’m a person who stay at the home without any work. 

First post in 2012

A new style for my blog.Looked simple and clean,I like it.I had used long time to change it.A new year,a new looking~

Yes,welcome to 2012 year.It is a point to turn into a new leaf but I never done it.Same as before,I online until midnight and wake up lately.Yesterday I just had the trial of my driving test.Of course I passed because the man didn't watch me to drive when I'm doing parking.I did some mistakes there too.Since I'm still do not have enough confidence,I asked for extra hours for learning.Hope that I can pass in the next next Monday.

Here sharing a fun fact which I read from newspaper :

--Try to spell out the number you would to get 1000 before you found the letter 'A'.

(I'm not understand this sentence before my daddy explain to me.It really fun.)

--The longest word which can made from the first row of keyboard is TYPEWRITER.

--The English speaking people in China more than USA.

(Really?It had made me shock.Cool,right?)